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[May. 9th, 2009|06:53 pm] |
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things are getting easier. i'm still scared to death of using but the fear is getting smaller. it's been over a year. like most things, it will fade away little bit by little bit. i can not get over her though. i still feel the exact same as when i met her. at certain times it may have seemed like i didn't feel that way but there were different factors at play all the time clouding my vision. i wasn't as level headed as i am now. i couldn't reflect on things then. i couldn't plan past a day. that's one thing that isn't fading away. the relationship was really hard at certain points but in retrospect it was worth it to me. i've pretended to get over it. i've tried to get over it. i've even thought i was over it but i'm not. maybe i'm naive. maybe it hasn't been long enough. i feel like something is missing. i feel like now at this exact moment i am supposed to be with her. i'm not saying that i feel alone or lonely in some sense. i've got almost everything i want right now but something is missing and it bothers me all the time. when i sit and think about it, it always leads to her. i feel insane. i'm frusterated. we're supposed to be together but 4 huge things are keeping us apart. we went through so much. we went through more shit than anyone should ever have to. no one has compared to her and i'm afraid no one will. in fact i don't want anyone to. i miss her. i think i'm an idiot for this. i have a feeling she's moved on. |
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[Sep. 25th, 2007|09:50 pm] |
i think moving to manhattan was too much. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2007|02:30 am] |
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stay awake for 2 days and sleep for 1. randy jackson plays a killer bass line |
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[Feb. 12th, 2007|06:38 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | andorra, andorra | ] |
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| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | crazy local music from the 1200s | ] |
im in andorra. a tiny country between spain and france. they speak catalan which is a mix of french and spanish. everything isfrom the 1200s. its pretty cool. its actually really cold. the house im staying in is 6000ft in the air. we are staying in the pyrenesse (i dont speak spanish - ron burgandy). going to barcelona spain in 8 days. drugs are super cheap here. 200 dollars a gram in usa 20 dollars a gram here. nuuuuuuuuts. the airport people went through my bags and took my deoderant but not my xanax and klonopin. the keyboard is insane |
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[Jan. 29th, 2007|11:36 am] |
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im moving to europe feb9th and working at emi studios better known as abbey road |
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[Jan. 11th, 2007|01:35 pm] |
zach and i are getting radio airplay in california for the recordings he and i did. i dont know what to think. celebrate this comedy is getting the most plays out there but we have a new one that we didnt release yet that i think will blow everyone out of the water and actually give him a better chance at a career. he said that if and when he gets signed that he is going to bring me to whatever studio he works at to be his engineer and coproducer
www.myspace.com/zacheryquinnmusic |
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[Dec. 5th, 2006|06:12 am] |
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there is a blue ring around the moon right now |
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[Nov. 27th, 2006|07:29 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | afterlife | ] |
| [ | music |
| | titanic theme song | ] |
leland is d.e.a.d.
no thanks to you |
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[Oct. 7th, 2006|11:48 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | whe | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | what | ] |
| [ | music |
| | what | ] |
i've walked 20 miles in the past 2 days and still can't sleep |
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[Oct. 6th, 2006|03:00 am] |
i have to get out of somewhere. be somewhere else. not where i am.
im crawling out of my skin |
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[Oct. 5th, 2006|01:20 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | killer | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the ataris all night | ] |
this was a really good time. on the real. vietnamese food is so good, and cheap.
getting better |
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[Sep. 29th, 2006|02:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | rich | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band | ] |
i found $1070 cash in my room. i guess i hid it from myself. |
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[Sep. 27th, 2006|09:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | im going down | ] |
| [ | music |
| | happiness is a warm gun | ] |
the only person looking out for me is me
Mother Superior jump the gun |
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[Sep. 23rd, 2006|01:11 pm] |
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| |  sick | ] |
i know 5 people who have overdosed in the past 5 months. i need to slow down. fuck reality. in fact what the fuck is reality. this dude was only 17 |
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